Update....

Okay so I haven't been very talkative on here lately because I didn't want to be disappointed again and have to see the pity looks from friends and family when they see me.... I think that all the concern is wonderful and I truly appreciate it but some of the looks I get are saddening.... But I decided that the looks are not that of disappointment or pity, but it's the looks of concern from truly concern people! So I'm back!!!

On Saturday morning we went in for our monthly monitoring @ 7:30... The technician was so cold and anti social, not sure if it was because Michelle came in with me, She look back when I was waiting for Michelle like who is she?!?!? So she starts looking and she's not saying anything (not like the other techs before) and she didn't let me see the screen! So I asked her what she was seeing and she said 1 follicle and then I had to ask her the size and she told me 25. Then she tells me the nurse will call me... So the nurse calls me @ 10:30 and tells me that I only had 1 mature follicle (25mm) for it being CD 8... So the nurse tells me to use the Ovidrel that night and inseminate Sunday and Monday..... So I called the KD and told him and he thought we should inseminate everyday this week... So we have inseminated everyday this week so far.... I was wondering before should I use the CBEFM or the OPK and I decided that I would and for the last 2 days I have gotten a smiley face on the OPK and the CBEFM had shown the "egg" for Sunday and Monday but today went back to the 2nd notch.... So I don't know what I should think of that... I am not stressing over the outcome because like I said before God will make it happen when it's suppose to....






I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Day 2

Okay so I didn't blog yesterday, But I inseminated again last night. The day started off as usually, but I was a little worried because I got a negative OPK. So I looked it up on the internet and it said that you will get a positive once and it will come 24-36 hours before you'll ovulate... Then @ 6pm our KD came over, but Michelle couldn't be here because she had to work late, I was comfortable because after we spoke with our friends and they shared with us how I can do it myself if Michelle couldn't be there. So after he left I used the Pre-Seed 15 minutes before I inseminated, then I used the Instead softcup and got in the bed. I stayed in bed for the rest of the night... So Thursday morning we'll do it again instead we'll go to his house to pick up the sperm instead him coming we'll go @ 7am!!!


After we inseminate tomorrow then the 2 week wait begins....








I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

The Big Day!!!

So this morning the line wasn't dark but it was there, where other days it wasn't there @ all..So tonight we're gonna inseminate, I'm drinking so much water right now, because they say the more water you drink the more CM you'll have!! But I'm getting everything ready, specimen cup (check), syringe (check), instead softcups (check), Pre-Seed (check) and sperm (coming)!!! So everything is in order now just patiently waiting til 7 for KD to get here...

Okay, gotta go cook dinner before Michelle gets home from work.... Will update later tonight... Pray for US!!!!





I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Testing...

So woke up @ 7:30 with the dying urge to use the bathroom, but of course I have to open 2 pee sticks before I can release!! So, I finally get them both open as I'm hopping around by the toilet. So I relax and saturate both stick so now I have to watch blinking symbols for 3-5 minutes as they read my pee... So today I decide I would just sit on the toilet and wait because when I get up I always forget to look right away, and I'm thinking that's why I can't get positive results!! (but of course that's not the truth) I'm sitting there for what seems like forever! And then the big fat "O", when you what to see a big fat smiley face!! So of course I go to thinking "What's wrong with me?" And the other one didn't change from yesterday, but that's expected....

So we're having lunch with some of our friends from church who's been where we are now and they succeed!! Hoping to get some good information and advise from them... Didn't tell you that last night they gave us enough OPK and pregnancy tests to have an army! And some great books!! I tell you that "our community/family" is the best!!! So meeting in Royal Oak for lunch can't wait!!!




I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Monitoring...

Okay so woke up @ 6am with 2 sticks on my mind!! But I guess I didn't saturate the OPK stick enough because it gave me the the image of "go read the instructions!" so luckily I can redo that one again this evening....

Arrived @ 7:06 (because of fog) and had to give blood first. I told the lady that she usually takes it from the side, but of course she goes right in the middle and nothing comes out!!! So she looks @ me and I look @ her like "I told you!" so now I have to get poked again because she's hardheaded!!! Then off to lay on my back with my legs up (sounds good, huh?) not! I hate them stir ups.. Well she gets started and I guess we've been doing it so long Michelle's no longer gets excited I looked over @ her and she's doing her hair?!?! But on my right side I have a 20mm and then on my left side I have a 21mm an a 19mm...that's good to only be on CD 9... because usually the monitoring is done on CD 11-12 and they like you to be over 20mm?!?! So the Femara is working well. Now I just have to wait for the nurse to call me this afternoon and tell me when I can inseminate..... So you must wait with me till later... I'll update this evening..







I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Excited...

Even though I have been going to have monitoring (sonogram) for like 6 months now, I'm excited about going tomorrow because of several reasons. First, I'm on new meds so I can't wait to see how it's working. Secondly, I can't wait for the nurse to call me and tell me what day to inseminate. I know this month will be so much better because I know so much more about my CM and I have so many more tools to use this month.

Today I brought an OPK so that I can start using it tomorrow CD 9.... I have tried using them in the past but because of the Clomiphene it would never give me a positive sign, maybe now since I'm on the Femara it will work for me?!?! So now when I get up rushing to the bathroom (because I hold it til the last minute!) I will have to pee on 2 sticks! That's a lot but it's worth it!!

Okay up early tomorrow to be @ the doctor's office @ 7am.....

Getting ready to bake carrot cupcakes with homemade cream cheese icing... having guests over tonight to watch my favorite shows (Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice)...



I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

decision...

A decision has been made today... We're going to use a sperm bank! We're going to use to different sperm banks because we want to have options when deciding the donor... Today I faxed over the paperwork to The California Cryobank that's need to set up an account with them.. So this weekend we'll start looking through their donor list and pick 2 to get more information about...

I'm getting excited!!

Also, yesterday I started using an OPK, did one last night and it was negative... Even though we were just testing it I was still disappointed that it came back negative...

Okay, needed to share that excitement with you. Will be back later to update you some more....

insemination signs...

Okay so I just finish reading the chapter about insemination signs... It was very interesting and I'm going to give you just a little info....

I know that I'm jumped around but that's how i'm reading the book.. next I will read about ovulation signs and post them... But because I know my signs I wanted to know when is best to inseminate...

Insemination signs:
Ideal day to inseminate
-BBT (Basal Body Temperature) hasn't risen yet or just starting to drop..
-An open cervix
-Your OPK (Ovulation Prediction Kit) is "high" for a few days or "peak"
-Your sex drive has increased..

Too Late:
When you feel that cramping or localized twinge you have already ovulated..
-Circle in your underwear...

2 important points to remember

*inseminate @ your signs of peak fertility..
*Don't delay while holding out for temperature or a positive OPK... While the rest of your fertility signals are screaming peak!!!