Pre Op appt....

Okay so this morning I woke up @ 5 am just lying in bed thinking of all the questions I wanted to ask the doctor about this surgery!!! So for 3 hours I was lying there thinking about what he would say and then what would be my reply to that... Got there and nothing I played in my head happened!!

So I walk in and my doctor is looking at me like why are you here?!?!? So I tell him why I'm here and he replies that I told you we should try twice before we consider doing the surgery!! (not what I remember!) but of course later when I'm telling Michelle she's like yeah I remember him saying that!!! (then why didn't you tell me?!) So from that moment I wanted to start crying! Because I was wrong and because I was there alone I felt stupid!! So I make up other questions so I don't feel like I wasted my time coming there!!

He tells me that I'm doing everything right and doing the surgery isn't gonna tell us anything concrete (he would need to take 6 women into surgery and the 1 woman that's different would be how he would know if something is wrong!) So in my head I'm thinking but it'll give you something so let's do it!!! But he's saying it like it's not worth cutting into you until we've exhausted all other options... So then I go way left field and ask him to tell me about IVF!! his first answer is it'll cost you 15k to do the procedure but because of your age it's a 33% chance you'll conceive on the 1st cycle! In my head I'm calculating that I'll need like 30k to do this. I don't see this as an obstacle I can't handle, but I'm also seeing the concern look from Michelle when I tell her about it!!! So he tells me this is what he'll like me to do before we even look @ IVF, get my KD to have another sperm analysis to make sure nothing has changed with him in the past 5 months... And also, he wants me to use this injectable medicine (Menopur) along with the Femara, this medicine cost $100 per bottle and I need to use 5-6 bottles per cycle!!!


So how am I feeling right now?? I'm not feeling like I got much answers or results, because I want to know why haven't I gotten pregnant yet??? I know that everything happens when God wants it to... So now I'm sitting @ home wondering what should I do next??? @ first I was thinking that we wouldn't try again this month because of the surgery, but now that that's not happening should we try again this month?? Hindrance, the cost and it being Christmas time, I really think we can handle the extra cost but I think it would cut into our gift giving to our nieces and nephews?? And how fair would that be to them?? Some of them are too young to understand that we made that choice... That's why when we do have a baby I plan to make sure that she/he doesn't look @ Christmas as all about presents!!! I can't wait until Michelle gets home so we can talk....

On another note, I took a HPT this morning because I just wanted to know, And of course it was a BFN!!! But still no cycle, so still doing the waiting game!!! But I know it's stalling to drive me insane?!?










I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Thanksgiving...

Okay so today has been very busy...  I was up baking desserts @ 7am and as the morning went on I felt my lower back starting to hurt (as it always do before my cycle start), so that put more clouds in my day than already seemed to be outside.... I know that people will say that you can't tell yet, but I know my body and I don't feel like I'm pregnant... I tried not to think about it all day, but now that I'm home and the festivities are over I'm thinking about what could I possibly be doing wrong??? My RE told me that if it didn't work this month that we should do the laparoscopy surgery next month. So I guess I need to prepare myself for the surgery =((((...



Hope everyone had a great time with their love ones and family.... I know I had a great day....


I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Test results...

So yesterday I had to have my Progesterone test done... So because I had to take my grandmother to HFH main campus I decided I would just have my test there oppose to going all the way to Somerset... Well the lady that was taking my blood was pregnant and I don't usually ask women when are they due. But I did, and she told me she was due in Feb. and that this will be her 5th baby!!! (ages 13, 3, 2 and 1)!!! and she didn't even want to be pregnant again!!! It got me to thinking, why is it that I can't be happy for "straight women" when I hear that they're pregnant??? Is it because they don't have to go through all the stuff that we go through?? Or is it because 9 times out of 10 they wasn't even trying to get pregnant!?!?! I don't know why it is but I know I need to work on that....


Anywho, the nurse called me this morning with the test results. My progesterone levels we're 14.1 she said that was good and that my uterus lining was thick. But my only concern now is how good is that because usually every month they say that my levels were great and my uterus lining is thick, but not one time has it produced a BFP!!! So how much weight should I put into that test??? I'll just wait til Dec. 2, when my cycle should start to know what is what??


Okay, I just wanted to update "blog world" with the test results... I have to go bake have over a dozen of cakes and pies to back tonight!!!!



Enjoy your Thanksgiving if I don't talk to you before than....





I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Early morning...

Okay so I woke up @ 6am ready to go get the sperm from KD, but Michelle isn't the morning person sometimes!!! So I'm sitting in the bed hoping she would hurry up. Finally, @ 6:30 she gets up and she's ready to go get it!! We get to KD house @ 6:55 and he's right out @ 7 with cup in hand... We get home like @ 7:20, and I get very anxious about getting it done, Michelle strolls around and don't understand my urgency to do it!! So of course we argue about how I'm all amped up and she's so cool and collected. So finally, after all that unnecessary time we spend talking (I'm going crazy in my head) It's done @ 7:32!!!! So now I'm laying up in bed relaxing.. Today is CD 15 and I'm thinking maybe we should do it again Saturday???


But even if we don't do it again, I go to the doctor's office for BW, (Progesterone test)





I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Monitoring update!

Okay nurse called and my estrogen level is 136 (not sure what's the norm) but with the size follicles I have she wants me to do my trigger shot (Ovidrel) tomorrow night and inseminate Sunday and Monday! I'm just so glad that it's Sunday because my KD is out of town til Sunday evening! And the funny thing is we were emailing this week and I told him that I think we should start inseminating Sunday so we had already planned for Sunday. So, he'll be here straight from this trip and then we'll do it again Monday evening and because I'm such an anal person with this we'll probably do it again Tuesday morning before Michelle goes to work =)))... My KD said that he'll do it everyday if that what we want (he is God sent!)....

So that's it til tomorrow when I take the shot, only thing about that is that after that shot I'm usually so moody! But I'm going pray and believe that I'm not going drive Michelle crazy!!!

Pray for her and me!! =)))








I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Monitoring...

Okay so woke up @ 6am with 2 sticks on my mind!! But I guess I didn't saturate the OPK stick enough because it gave me the the image of "go read the instructions!" so luckily I can redo that one again this evening....

Arrived @ 7:06 (because of fog) and had to give blood first. I told the lady that she usually takes it from the side, but of course she goes right in the middle and nothing comes out!!! So she looks @ me and I look @ her like "I told you!" so now I have to get poked again because she's hardheaded!!! Then off to lay on my back with my legs up (sounds good, huh?) not! I hate them stir ups.. Well she gets started and I guess we've been doing it so long Michelle's no longer gets excited I looked over @ her and she's doing her hair?!?! But on my right side I have a 20mm and then on my left side I have a 21mm an a 19mm...that's good to only be on CD 9... because usually the monitoring is done on CD 11-12 and they like you to be over 20mm?!?! So the Femara is working well. Now I just have to wait for the nurse to call me this afternoon and tell me when I can inseminate..... So you must wait with me till later... I'll update this evening..







I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

Test results

Testing.....


Well Monday I had blood work to check my progestrone level, if your level is above 10 that means that you ovulated for the month. Got my test results back yesterday and my level was 38!! That's good, and she was excited but i'm gonna wait til after I miss my period and than I'll test.... But I'm still not having any symptoms or anything it feels the same to me....


Will update you again next week after I start my period or test.....





I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."

HSG test

On Friday I went in for my HSG x-ray.. I was expecting it to be easy and simple but it was far from that! I was told to take some pain pills about an hour before hand and I did, but it didn't help! The purpose of the test was to see if my fallopian tubes had any blockage and to see the shape of my uterus. Everything was great!! As my dr. said if it was a quiz I would have received an A!! So I'm so glad and relieved that every test that I've had thus far has been great and I don't see why in June when we inseminate it shouldn't take. We've decided (more so Michelle) that we're gonna let Dr. Hayter inseminate @ the clinic...

This past weekend I met some of Michelle's friends and was given some good information, about a digital OPK and about a liquid prenatal drink, will look into both this week and tell you more about it later...

Just wanted to update you on my test on friday...











I will end each blog with this disclaimer "I'm not a Doctor or expert on this subject. Anything I say is just informational and you should always speak with your doctor before doing or trying anything I say medically."